We all know I heart Hot Yoga.
It surprised me more than it surprised you. Trust me. I had no idea how much I would love it. I expected to hate it, tolerate it at best.
And I felt blissfully at home the minute I walked in.
I'm a very disciplined person. I'm disciplined about the way I eat, my exercise, what I read, what I watch, how I act, who I bring into my life. I'm disciplined about the decisions that I make. It might not always be EASY, but I try to be disciplined about making the RIGHT choice. If I make a poor choice, food wise, exercise or whatever, it is intentional. I'm in control of me.
And recently, I was told my a professional, as well as someone I love, that I am TOO disciplined. That the world is not black and white, and our actions are not easily controlled.
I purpose to make good choices. I purpose to eat well. (and when I slip, it is intentional) I purpose to exercise my body. You think getting up at 4:30 am to run is a habit? It's not; it's a choice. Discipline.
I think this is what appeals to me about yoga. You are very much in control of your body. And there is not good, better, best way to do each pose. You move into each pose at your own ability, reaching further as you are able. That discipline, that control, appeals to me in a time where my life feels very out of control.
The room is quiet, the lights are dim and everyone is so respectful. It's a hour and a half each day that I can anticipate calm. I can quiet my mind and control my body. You just don't know how valuable peaceful feeling is. A quiet mind. At least I have a quiet mind for an hour and a half.
I signed up through Groupon and got a great deal. Sadly, my coupon ran out a couple of weeks ago. The price for a membership is very high. My financial situation shaky right now, I couldn't justify spending that much each month. Maybe in a few months when things settle down and I get a better idea of my expenses. I was sad to see yoga go, it came at a time in my life where I needed it most.
Saturday I got a text message from an unknown number that read, "One month unlimited of your yoga purchased for you. It is in their system. From a friend."
I had a pretty good idea who that friend was. And I was so very grateful.
Sunday afternoon I headed back to the yoga studio eager to attend the Water class, arguably my favorite. I was greeted with big smiles and hearty hellos. The owner said that she missed me and was so glad that I was back. Hesitantly, I explained my cryptic message.
She smiled and said something to me that made me break down and cry. I couldn't contain the tears. I just stood there at the counter and wept silently.
Without hesitation, she came around the desk and hugged me tight. And said, "Sometimes we are guided where we need to be. I think you needed to be here. And now you are."
Sniffling, I joined the class, trying desperately to turn my mind off. Tears continued to roll down my face as I lay in savasana prior to class. Giant tears mixed with the sweat from my brow throughout class. For once, the peace I so longed for, eluded me. About an hour into class I started to relax and really enjoy myself. I felt my tight muscles stretching, my achey hips loosening, my spine elongating. I focused on my breath. After class I lay in savasana for a full 15 minutes.
The instructor pulled me aside as I headed out the door. She wasn't aware of the conversation I had with the owner, earlier. And then she said to me, "Pink Girl, I was sending love vibes to you throughout class. God told me to. Did you feel them?"
What an incredibly bold and generous thing to do! We may be born of a sinful nature, but wow, the human spirit has a HUGE capacity for love. God has shown this to me over and over of late. Even of strangers, reaching out to offer support, a shoulder to cry on, or to send love vibes.
So, send out some love vibes to someone you see today. You just never know how much they might need them.
And above all, love each other deeply, because love covers a multitude of sins. 1 Peter 4:8